Dear diary, Mood apethetic :(

Question:- My friends keep leaving me out. What should I do?

Answer:- Well, that sucks. You have a couple of options. As hard as it seems, you have to talk to your friend and tell them how you are feeling. Sometimes, they do not realize that they are doing it. If this fails, you have your last resort which is.

LEAVE THEM.

Confession :- I don't know why but I've been feeling that way these past few weeks. I feel left out and alone.

:(

"I used to like the olives in my sandwich. But now, I leave them out because my new friends say they look and taste funny."

Leave out the olives. They're salty.

Friends.

Are not forever.

Well, the ones I have.

They forget about me after a while.

They don't reply to your sms-es.

They ignore you on facebook.

They ignore you on msn.

They don't laugh at your jokes anymore.

They don't tell you what's going on.

They don't even know that you exist.

"I used to like the olives in my sandwich. Now, I leave em' out because my friends say they're salty."

You ignore me.

Now I'm going to ignore you.

Yeah. You.

You know who you are.

It was a good thing he dumped you.

For another girl.

She's waaay better.

At least she doesn't ignore me.

I'm sick and tired of trying to fit in with you.

Bitch, don't expect my letter.

Cause your never to get it.

Congratulations :)

im going to go isaac for a while

i am purely disgusted by love.

nobody wants to date that fat ugly bitch by the corner.

nobody.

not even me.

Simon Pegg :)

*sigh*

my acting heart has fallen in love all over again with...

....Simon Pegg :)

Okay lah, I know that he's not hot and shit like that.

But he's a friggin awesome actor. Period.

He's so awesome. Here is one video from an awesome drama which would be better if everyone in it was gay and making out :D

Band Of Brothers

He sounds so funny with a Southern American accent :D

I wish he'd leave her *sigh*

Ouch. That hurts.

gwad life is so complicated.

recently a son of a bitch friend of mine decided to irritate me by calling me singular.

okay. so i got irritated but deep down i was kinda hurt.

i don't have a choice.

people just aren't attracted to me.

it's not their fault either.

i mean i have no qualifications whatsoever.

and i don't really care.

MY MAN IS STILL OUT THERE, HE'S JUST GOING OUT WITH ALL THE WRONG

GIRLS RIGHT NOW :P

AND I'M JUST FALLING FOR ALL THE WRONG MEN RIGHT NOW.

*SIGH*

Total FML mood.

Basically, I'm sick and tired of my pathetic life.

I'm sick and tired of me

I'm sick and tired of friends

I'm sick and tired of school

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired of everything that makes me sick and tired.

I'm not supposed to be here.

I'm wasting my life every single second, dreaming.

Of a better place to go.

Wishing that I can fill the hole that's in my heart.

Her dream came true.

Why can't mine?

I don't wanna go to any freakin college.

Screw AfuckingLevels.

I'm going to live my life the way it's supposed to.

I'm going to go to....

The London Academy Of Media Film and Tv.

and

The London Academy Of Music and Dramatic Arts.

All I need is 13,690 pounds to get part of my life back on track :(

"Mommy, Daddy, One day, you'll see my name in lights."

HAUL.

I decided to go through my wardrobe today.

you know, to look for a nice new bag.

and sadly, i do not own any handbags.

well i do lah but they're all the cheap cheap brand.

like coach, elle, billabong.

So, I decided to make a list of the bags I want :]

Let me warn you, I extremely love ridiculously ridiculous bags :]

Marc Jacobs Iconic Glitter Robert Bag

Versace Fox Hexagonal Tote in Turquoise

Coach Soho Large Ski Hobo

Bottega Veneta Barcelona Cabat

Carlos Falchi Nubuck Tall Hobo

More to come soon :]

LV HAUL!

BROADWAY!

Where to go?

What to do?

Malaysia?

London?

College?

Drama school?

Write?

Act?

Family?

Broadway?

*sigh* life is so complicated :(

Русский язык!

Woohoo :)

Ohmygod. I'm like so very extremely obsessed with the RUSSIAN LANGUAGE!

And of course the boys :)

AHAHAH :D

Voy a ser una superestrella. Usted sólo espera y ve

Я люблю Russian :D

Deception, an outrage!

Deception

Disgrace

You know this outsider types.

Traitor go back.

Deception

Disgrace.

Ohkayy. I don't know why but for some reason, I seem to be obsessed with the movie

THE LION KING TWO!

I really wanna go to broadway and be Kiara :D

Oh and one more weird fact!

I'm in love with the lion Kovu.

I know. Weird right.

Somehow, I think he's voice is uber sexy :)

Google Jason Marsden!

HOTLIKEHELL!

Oh and I've been listening to the "he is not one of us" in like every language available.

they have it in every freaking language.

how fucking awesome is that?

I happen to love the french, hebrew, german and arabic version!

so nice :)

awesomest version ever!

i think simba sounds fucking hot in arabic :D hahahahaahahah LOL

and kiara. sound nice.

Second best version :-

Don't cha think everything sounds sexier in french?

J'adore the accent.

I'm going to adopt it :D

L'exile!

GARH.

Use somebody.

HAISHH.

Why do I keep dreaming and thinking about him?

I feel like this zombie wandering around in search of something.

It's like everything I do doesn't satisfy me.

It's like I'm never full no matter how much I eat

I'm never well rested no matter how much I sleep.

♥ ♥ ♥

dude. i need you to breathe.

meeting you once or twice. two hours a week isn't enough.

i want to spend my whole entire life with you.

if i tell you that i love you, can i keep you?

Debate definations.

Debates suck.

But this definations rule :D

A. Debate :- A formal discussion involving one or more people who develop arguments and logically defend their points to prove their position true.

Example :-

"MCR give the best live performance ever."

"No they don't."

"Yeah they do, stupid idiot."

B.Hypothesis - stance on a topic which the debate focuses around.

Example: "America's government blows ass."

C. Thesis - logical comparative clause that supports the hypothesis.

Example: "God exists because it says so in the bible, you moron. You're going to hell."

D. Argument - something you say to piss your opponent off and move the topic away from the hypothesis.

Example: "You're stupid and nobody likes you."

E. Logic - progressive statement that follows valid reasoning.

Example: "Some people who wear purple are stupid. You're wearing purple, therefore you are stupid.

URGH. I have to do a freaking debate and it ain't easy.

introductions please.

Hi.

My name is Deana.

But most of my friends call me Dee.

I'm 16.

I like the colour purple.

My favourite flower is the lavender.

I like the smell of lavender.

I like to sing and perform.

I like your smile.

I like your laugh.

I like your sense of humour.

Now Mister, don't be shocked.

But this past two minutes meant alot to me.

Please, don't think I'm weird.

But, Mister. I think I love you..

:D

NOW JADE.

I OWE YOU A FREAKING HUGE APOLOGY.

SORRY I COULDN'T RETURN YOUR PHONE ON SATURDAY,

MY MOM DIDN'T WANNA DRIVE TO YOUR HOUSE.

AND NO I DIDN'T HAVE TUITION THAT SATURDAY.

SORRY COULDN'T RETURN IT ON SUNDAY.

MY DAD DIDN'T WANNA DRIVE TO YOUR HOUSE

AND NO I DIDN'T HAVE TUITION ON SUNDAY.

SORRY I DIDN'T ANSWER THAT ONE MISSED CALL

I WAS STILL SLEEPING.

SORRY I DIDN'T ANSWER THE OTHER MISSED CALLS.

I NEVER RECEIVED ANY.

SORRY I DIDN'T TURN MY PHONE ON

I RAN OUT OF BATTERY.

SORRY I DIDN'T TURN YOUR PHONE ON.

IT RAN OUT OF BATTERY AND I DIDN'T KNOW YOUR PIN CODE.

SORRY IF YOUR GRANDMA WENT NUTS.

I SERIOUSLY DIDN'T KNOW THAT HAPPENED.

SORRY I APOLOGISE TOO MUCH.

I MAKE TOO MANY MISTAKES.

SORRY I NEVER CALLED YOU TO TELL YOU THAT I COULDN'T COME.

I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.

I GOT TONGUE TIED.

SORRY SORRY SORRY.

I KNOW I MADE A FREAKIN' HUGE MISTAKE.

PLEASE FORGIVE ME T.T

SAYA MINTAK MAAF BANYAK BANYAK.

Jade Lim Summers

wtf?! shes suppose to give it back to me this morning! if not couldnt she give it to me just now when she had tuition at school in the evening?!

21 hours ago

Jade Lim Summers

fucking hell okay. DO YOU KNOW HOW SHIT IT IS? MY GRANDMA... you dont wanna know. DEANA. YOU CANT GIVE THE COURTESY TO TELL YOU CANT COME YESTERDAY MORNING?! YET YOU DONT FUCKING CALL ME AT ALL TO TELL ME. I CALLED YOU BUT YOU DIDNT PICK UP AND AFTER THAT YOU OFFED YOUR PHONE?! WTF OKAY.

9 hours ago