LikeOhmygod! Aku sakitt.

I'm down with the flu todayy.

felt so lethargic that takleh buat aper aper.

*sigh*

aduh! fuck you man!

okayy korang sumer dah tahu dat i like chipped my tooth.

getting it fixed tomorrow.

it hurts like hell bila i makan.

my bestfriend's a total bitch

another fab song by yours truly..

crashing through moon

Confidence (:

Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will

Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

if teddy geiger could do it..

...so can i (:

ps:- Jade, i was lying. It's not him.

Sorry.

I HAVE TO WHATT?

How does holding his hand feel like?

How does looking in his eyes feel like?

How does talking to him feel like?

How does hugging him feel like?

How does kissing him feel like?

How does biting him feel like?

How does sleeping with him feel like?

But mostly,

How does it feel like to know that you're the only one on his mind?

get OUT OF MY HEAD!! please..

will you be the edward to my bella?

or the jasper to my alice?

will you be the seth to my summer?

or the troy to my gabriella?

OR,

WILL YOU JUST BE MINE?

Dude. I'm begging you.

PLEASE GET OUT OF MY HEAD.

I can't bear rejection anymore ;(

i like you.

Another heart calls <3

Everywhere I turn, it seems like more and more people are falling in love.

I'm 16 this year, actually i just turned sixteen a few days back. But in all my 16 years of life, no guy was ever there for me. I know i sound dumb, but the truth is, i'm sick of turning around and looking at all my friends falling in love. coughcoughnooffencejadecoughcough. Urgh. Yes i know i really sound dumb but...

i want a guy to remember when my birthday is and try to make it the best day ever, even though it really sucked deep down.

i want a guy to buy me my favourite flowers coughcoughlavendercoughcough.

i want a guy to sing my favourite song (and i don't care if he's tone deaf.)

i want a guy to sms me at random times, so that i know i'm always on his mind.

i want a guy to tell me how his day was, so that i can tell my suckish day too.

i want a guy who would tell me jokes whenever i'm pms-ing.

i want a guy who i can hug and kiss.

but actually all i want is a guy who would understand me, no matter how complicated i am.

santa, if you bring me that guy in my mind, i promise, i won't ask for anything else ever again.

if you were mine, i promise, i'll never ask for anyone but you.

it's not my fault i'm in love with you. you're the one who tripped me.

god.god.god.how can i tell them?

i'd do it for love. love. love. love. love. love.

gaahh. i'm soo crushing on this one dude. hahah. deana likey likey him (:

please do not ask me who he is as i do not intend in revealing his name until he's mine. muhaha.

okay so for starters. jade and me got deviantart. so asswipes, please create deviantart and add us cause we're awesome!

yes we are awesome.

A letter to god.

Dear god,

Sometimes I wonder, why the fuck did u create me?

Is it to torture the whole of mankind?

Or to insult the whole of womankind?

Why am I talentless?

Why do people I trust betray me?

Why am I un-smart?

Why am I emotional?

Why do some of my friends secretly hate me?

Why do people diss me behind my back?

Why do I like 'him'?

Why do I cry alot?

Why does my dad blame me for every single thing?

Why is my mom embarassed of me?

Why do I have a temper?

Why am I a byotch?

Why does my parents favor both my brothers?

Why doesn't he like me?

Why do I say stupid things?

Why did I move to malaysia?

Why do I trust people?

Why can't I tell them?

Why do I keep alot of secrets?

Why don't people praise me?

Why do I hate my dad?

Why am I jealous of her?

Why am I sick?

Why am I never happy?

Why do I care?

Why do people find me weird?

Why don't they laugh at my jokes?

Why don't people reply to my sms-es or answer my calls?

Because of you, I became something I swore I would never become.

Worst birthdayy ever! sorta!

Happy Birthdayy Mrs. Deana Leto (:

Well yeah, today is my goddam birthdayy.

and it's the worst dayy ever.

But well I got great gifts from Jisoo and Jade!

And wishes from the rest of my greatest friends.

So maybe that's the fun part.

Omama go buy me some booze,

we go celebrate!

Lol. that's how i look if i was a south park character (: credits to Jade!

self- reminder.

i told another lie today

and i got through the day,

no one saw through my game.

only a few more days.

i can stay strong.